Lifestyle // Loneliness.

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 I am lonely and I have been for a while. Does this make me upset? Sometimes, but I feel like I've accepted the fact that I, like many others get lonely sometimes. I feel alone, but does this make me sad? No, I've tried my hardest on countless occasions to put myself out there but it just doesn't work. I wish I had more genuine friends. But am I going to dwell on it? Nope, not a chance. This is the strangest post I've ever written but I just feel like since my blog is mine and I not only want to talk about fashion and beauty, that I need to write more personal lifestyle posts. I recently found myself feeling so angry and upset about how my life is now at the age of 19, in terms of how I feel compared to 2-3 years ago. If I was to go back in time, I'd never imagine myself to feel like this today. This is not me feeling sorry for myself. But this is me saying that I honestly don't mind feeling lonely sometimes. 
 I guess what I am trying to say is, I've learnt that it is actually okay to feel lonely at times. I'm lucky, I'm very lucky... I have an amazing and supportive family and even if we get into little arguments I'll never stop loving them. I don't have half as many 'friends' as I did around two years ago, but at least I have a few people who'll always pick me up when I'm feeling down and make me feel super happy because I know they truly care about my wellbeing, as I do there's. And yes, I may only be able to count those few people on one hand but that doesn't matter to me. Life is short and well all know that. Deep down I'd be so upset If I continued to waste my time on situations and people that just don't matter. Loneliness for me isn't isolating myself away from everybody, loneliness makes me come to the realisation that sometimes life is going to throw so much things at you, that you feel you can't handle but eventually you'll get through it and it's not a bad thing to not want to put on a brave face all the time.

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  1. I am so glad to read this post as I feel exactly the same way and I am not brave enough to blog about it really, I am always here if you need a chat xx

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    1. I was so scared to publish this but it was the nicest feeling to blog about feelings I've been bottling up for a while. It definitely doesn't change the situation but it's nice to get things out in the open. Thank you lovely, and as I am too Jessica! :)

      xx

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  2. I hope you're okay Vanese (: It's fine to feel lonely at times and it's also good, too. I'm a very solitary sort of person but still love spending time with a handful of close friends and family. It's good to be lonely and learn to be completely happy with your own company though!

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    1. Thank you Michelle :'D it's something that's always scared me, but as I've gotten older I've realised loneliness is nothing to be afraid of. Just having a handful of people around you is the absolute best!

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